My Demented thoughts

daredevil_wolf @ 2009-11-12T19:50:00

2009-11-13T03:50:37Z

ever have one of those days where its ok while you are at work/school/just out of the house and its all pretty decent... but as you walk in the door it all goes downhill... and then end up feeling a little dead inside?

boo....

2009-11-07T00:43:26Z

I just found out that they are re-making the old stop motion movie Clash of the Titans and I'm not really that thrilled.

I love that old cheesy movie around the the gods and the story of Perseus, but Hollywood got a hold of it and butchered the story up.

Plus they took out Bubo that crazy mechanical owl in the movie, ok he was a pointless part of the movie but I liked that crazy metal owl!...

I sad now....

daredevil_wolf @ 2009-11-02T20:30:00

2009-11-03T04:31:42Z

ok so I calmed down... I still hope that karma gets 'em but I gotta learn to let go and forgive cause everyone always gets theirs in the end...

daredevil_wolf @ 2009-11-02T12:34:00

2009-11-02T20:35:37Z

why is it that there has to be one person above you while at work who is a complete bitch or asshole?! I hate that person so very much and I honestly mean that I hope they would get hurt, not die but hurt... come on Karma!

Halloween '09

2009-11-02T03:57:04Z

Ok so first of all I gotta say that I did my gay bar/ halloween party the weekend before halloween so I was left to figure out what to do for actual Halloween. So I got a flyer in my email letting me know about a bunch of events happening at the El Dorado in Reno. Listing Fortune tellers, tarot cards, trick or treating, "coffin" bar crawl, halloween treats including caramel apples and candied apples and the Piz de resistance a midnight showing of Rocky Horror Picture Show which totally peaked my interest!

So we decided that we should get a room for the night in case we wanted to drink and not worry about someone staying sober. So we get to Reno and check in Harrah's hotel which is basically across the street from El Dorado and we get there and after we check in and relax in the room for a bit we head out to the events.

We get there and I'm all pumped for the forture telling and tarot cards and halloween jewlery and stuff, but was highly disappointed with what I found. The place still looked the same with the exception of a few card tables set up in the corners of the walk ways with the things set up on it... bummed I figured they might have something across the entire walkway between circus circus and el dorado. Which they didn't so I wanted to head back and try to find as much as i possibly could.

Again not finding much, I bought tickets for Rocky Horror and made sure we had seats, oh fyi it was only 7 pm at this point. So wandering about I figured that well we were here and I was gonna try to make the best of what was here. So I got my Fortune told by a lady who was a wiccan and also a life coach for her real job. So she starts, I picked 15 cards and she sets them out and begins to tell me that David and I are basically soul mates and we will have a very nice life together and be prosperous in whatever we choose to do. The reading was really about me so she tells me that I need to use my creativity and stop being a worry wart and just do things because my angels are watching out for me and protecting me and just stop second guessing life (not exact but in a nutshell) it was neat but also told me before we left that the future is up to me and no matter what she said it was all up to me and we left her table.

So then we went to go have some halloween drinks at the bars there, I had something called vampire bat blood it had vodka, midori, and cranberry juice. it was actually pretty good. I left it after the first one though and had to nurse the second one but its ok. David also got a frankie hat thing with the bolts on it and we got photo booth pics taken. he wore beer glasses and I had martini ones one. It took 6 pics and we wore them for 3 and normal face for the last 3... it was so cute I love taking the photo booth pics, they're fun!

But we did everything and it was only like 9:45 there was no way to stick around for another 2or3 hours for the movie, so we went back to the room and I changed shoes, heels hurt when your not used to them and relaxed until 11:15 (well David napped) so then we leave to go see the movie

We get there in plenty of time and get front row seats ^_^ and slowly it fills in... definately not crowded though. So the movie finally starts and of course I have to sing along cause DUH! and then I get pelted with rice for the wedding scene which makes me laugh well cackle and knew it was gonna get better from there. The Time Warp comes on and I do it in the theater and interact as much as I can without the props, yelling Slut to janet and Asshole to Brad. I wasn't sure they were gonna allow props so I didn't bring any.

The movie was a riot and then we head out for steak and "bloody" eggs for breakfast 2 ppl for $6.66 (all together!) awesome deal! then go to the room for sleepy.

All in all my Halloween was pretty good! I had fun even with the little disappointment in there.. ^_^

cringe

2009-10-30T03:05:06Z

attempted to listen to the friggin banana phone song again after what, like 4 yrs without it.

Yea, no! It still is freakin distubing as hell.... *shutter*

stupid scary banana song.......

daredevil_wolf @ 2009-10-27T20:02:00

2009-10-28T03:08:21Z

so its getting cold again, thankfully I can face the cold here with a spaceheater for the bedroom. The room is NEVER comfortable! its always too hot or too cold, with the spaceheater it makes it more manageable. So anyways, its freakin Halloween already! I went to the gay bar in Reno with Kris, had a blast! Can't decide if I wanna do it again this weekend or if I'm gonna drag David to Reno and go to the El Dorado for the halloween events they are having. It won' be costume time but sure enough it will be halloween themed out. Either way I would be happy.

what an ass

2009-09-30T04:38:48Z

ok yea I know I shouldn't care or follow hollywood trash but non the less I have some interest in the whole jon and kate bullshit. Ok they split, whatever but now according to the news flashes I get, the show is gonna get revamped to "kate plus eight" instead of the jon and kate one. but I guess a few hours after tlc annouced that it was gonna drop him, he went running to the tabloids whining about "I don't like myself and I don't wanna divorce I wanna stay..." *insert whiny voice here* god ok like I said I know I shouldn't care but

what an ass!

daredevil_wolf @ 2009-09-15T08:44:00

2009-09-15T15:46:11Z

so yea I have hives and they itch like hell, I went to the ER and had them check me out and they confirmed that it was more likely to be the antibiotic i was taking that gave me hives..

..so I'm at home resting today and not too happy about it

daredevil_wolf @ 2009-09-14T19:48:00

2009-09-15T02:51:56Z

SO I had my doc check my teeth sockets cause I felt like i still had a hole and afraid food will get stuck... well I do have holes in my face and I have nice oral hygiene so they don't hurt.

Although I did piss them off cause i took a syringe home to keep the food debris out and well you kinda have to put the tip of the rinser in the hole... ok well it may not have hurt before but when I put that salt water in there its well an open wound and yea... it smarts. I was proud of myself since I didn't have to take a pain pill but after that I had to take one.

Oh and on top of that I think I am having allergic reaction to something.. cause i do believe that I have hives on my arms and thighs.. great :p

ouchies

2009-09-05T18:45:16Z

Ok so I can eat my soft foods but I am kinda throbbing and its not really fun. I can talk and drink no prob but it still sucks...

daredevil_wolf @ 2009-09-03T22:48:00

2009-09-04T05:49:50Z

Rawr...

Tomorrow is my wisdom teeth surgery and well as it stands now, I am not really anything. Maybe a bit nervous but we shall see how it turns out

daredevil_wolf @ 2009-08-04T21:49:00

2009-08-05T04:55:27Z

why is it that everyone around me loves me and cares for me and I basically hate myself. I have an ideal self and half the time I feel like my ideal self but now I hate looking at myself. I want to make others happy... it makes my happy but though even when they are happy I get depressed still.

I hate myself; my looks, my attitude, my insecurities, the way I feel about David and my jealous ways, the way I care way too much, the way my mind races on with wild ideas...

..generally I love my life.., now I do not....

Spa day

2009-08-02T18:07:50Z

So I am here in Reno for the weekend and David has guard duty, so that leaves me to spend the day by myself in the hotel room. Out of curiosity I mentioned I would like to check out the spa here at the Atlantis and David let me make an appt and get a body wrap and massage done.

Suprised, I was happy but more nervous before I went. I made the appt for 8 am this morning and showed up at about 7:50 to get set up. I was there all by myself for a while and drank the complimentary tea while I waited. I drank chamomile since I was nervous and it calms the nerves. So then the lady calls me and he head to the last room in the whole spa area. I ordered the Cleopatra's Milk and Honey Body Wrap and that starts out with a sugar scrub which felt good but my nerves had to relax since I was still kinda freaking out. So then I rinsed off and then got the milk and honey mixture painted all over my body and got wrapped up in a dry water wrap and floated there for about 30 min and actually had cucumbers placed over my eyes (found that amusing) then after the extreamly relaxing wrap I hopped up to have my 30 min swedish massage too. Wow... how incredibly great it felt.. just everything was indulgent and pampering. I left the room after robing up and went to the Brine Inhalation room and kinda nodded off for a bit but woke up and left to go sit in the aromatherapy steam lounge, but I didn't stay cause it was too hot in there for me.

But all in all I felt like a princess regardless of my nerves and now I feel all pretty ^_^

Holy Crap!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-25T02:28:49Z

Alice In Wonderland Trailer!

Need I say more....?

daredevil_wolf @ 2009-07-12T20:26:00

2009-07-13T03:29:17Z

David told me today that he got himself an Ipod Touch, ok I know he wanted one but can I be a little jealous and thinking that he spend almost $300 dollars on himself that I want to have something worth the same? He already is asleep and I can't bring it up but I'm thinking that since he got that, for x-mas i should get a Kindle... its the same price almost and well I think I would use that more than an Ipod Touch....

..yea I am a little upset cause I want a toy too.... :P

daredevil_wolf @ 2009-07-11T11:46:00

2009-07-11T18:48:34Z

god now I remember why I stopped posting in Dark Awakenings...

I suck

plain and simple

while I can make people by finding a picture and giving them life, its only fun to me, and then they die.

just reading some posts in there and while I can write to an extent, I can't keep up with the whole thing and everyone else. that's why I left and probably while I will quit again

oh god...

2009-07-10T03:41:40Z

I really need to stop trolling DeviantArt, the reason is is that Cera who is all bubbly and perky now found a BFF .... Arg.... its not fair!!!

Why does everyone else have cool and evil and still really awesome charries who are not cute and bubbly.. why do I have these scary cheerleaders roaming my head!!!! *mumbles incoherant swears*

*EDIT*

http://girlunderwater.deviantart.com/art/Luna-and-June-128696978

Oh and by the way if you don't know, and if that is only possible if you don't know Cera, its the bright one....

... of course its a pair of sisters what else would it be

rawr...

2009-07-07T04:21:27Z

Ok yay! I have help with my dogs and I should be happy that my nephews are offering to bathe them and walk them .....

..and for the most part I am, BUT the bathing part I am irked on at the moment. My oldest nephew who is 14 has bathed Yuki twice now, and the first time.. she wasn't that dirty and I told him where the shampoo was. Then today Yuki got into the drip pan for the bbq and got greasy so again he bathed her again. Well today I found out he is using my moisterizing body wash on her plus she was being a little sneaky thing and got out barely bathed.

I come home from work and see she is wet and thank him, which I am glad he helped me out. but at a closer look, she wasn't clean. Curious I asked and he tells me that she got him all wet and jumped out of the tub and took off, ok well I can't be mad at him he tried but then find out he used the non-dog shampoo on her then I get irked and show him where the dog shampoo is and bathe her again.

So Yuki is now clean... finally and I make darn sure well he knows where the shampoo is for next time... geez

all in all

2009-07-05T05:54:53Z

So I knew I needed to cry out my depressed feelings and finally I did, earlier this afternoon. Then I felt better and went to the fireworks show with my nephews. David is over in TN trying to have a good time over the weekend and currently out at a bar or several. I'm really glad he is having a good time especially between all of his school work that is putting a mental stress on him. but a part of me is jealous and wishes that he would be sad like me... but I really don't wish that for him. I know its hard for him... I just have a devious streak in me that wishes him to be in the same emotional boat.... I'm weird I know

daredevil_wolf @ 2009-07-04T10:38:00

2009-07-04T17:41:20Z

Normally I would be happy its the 4th, pretty much because I would be able to set off fireworks or be with friends and what not. Today not so much. I'm quite depressed, not allowed to set fireworks off in NV since the fire hazard (ok understandable) but I am by myself. I made plans to take my nephews to see the them set off in Fernly but that is later tonight. I just am upset today and as much as I want to remedy that I feel like I wanna stay upset too, just to wallow in it.

I really don't like being alone

daredevil_wolf @ 2009-07-03T08:07:00

2009-07-03T15:17:42Z

I gotta write this down before I forget it....

I was dreaming that I was hanging out over at a friends house, well at least it was on the outside. When I walked in it was kinda like a long hallway house with a very tiny gathering room. The room was kinda dark and full of people I didn't know, the only thing that made it light up was a few stick candles here and there. Somehow I ended up escalating a fight just by walking into the room and a little girl who looked no more than 8 confronted my and challenged me to a competition. I ended up agreeing and the challenge began, oddly enough it was to take a pregnancy test. She went first and I watched her take hers,not the pee part, but the long involved process to get the stick to give a result. She capped it with a long cover that snapped on, it had some solution in it. She shook it for what seemed forever then took it out and plopped it into another bigger cup and let it sit. Apparently it took like another 3 min to get that result and she stopped and threw one at me, it was my turn. I did pee on it and began to shake it in that cap thing, and never got a result cause I woke up.

daredevil_wolf @ 2009-06-28T12:01:00

2009-06-28T19:04:32Z

David left early this morning for Tennnesse, and we took him to the airport. I knew it was coming, and in fact I wanted him to go. He left for Air School which means that he moves up a rank and pay grade, and although I wanted him to go, I still cried like a baby when he had to leave. I tried to be a good girl but unfortunately that didn't happen. He's gone for a month and return on the 31st of July. Although the extra pay is good, Military Sucks :'(

daredevil_wolf @ 2009-06-05T21:33:00

2009-06-06T04:34:21Z

Lol.... its Dug, I found the icon online... poor Dug, he's wearing the Cone of Shame.... *snuffle*

Hello Team Jacob....

2009-06-03T18:12:20Z

ok yea I'll admit I'm all for team Edward.. uh hello Vampire, duh. But Wolfie has perks too.... and after seeing the trailer... ohhhh hello jacob. ^_^ wolfie is pretty, well pre-wolfie is... the acutal wolfie could've been better.